Human beings are amazing. I believe the human spirit is the strongest force there is. Even at our lowest lows, our spirit can remain unbroken and fighting.
Here's to those that choose to fight and never ever ever give up.
"The Universe in not outside of you. Look inside yourself; everything that you want, you already are."
-Rumi
I had a simple idea to make a christmas dance video with a few friends. I told my multi-talented friend, Kyle Breen, about it, and he jumped on board to contribute his brilliant ideas. Kyle is one of my favorite people to work with because he always challenges me to go bigger and think outside the box.
1 google sheet + 1 trips to central park + 2 google docs + 3 late night phone calls + 78 text messages + 25 dancer +, 2 videographers + 3 cameras = and we had ourselves an epic video project!
To My Dancers:
THANK YOU from the very bottom of my yellow heart for all of your love, support, and dedication to make this happen. You all are so so so so special to me. To have all of you together and dancing was BEYOND MAGICAL for me to witness.
It could not have been a more perfect day... First of all, the weather was not as bad as it could have been, considering it's December in New York City. Yet in the background for the scenes, we had this beautiful light dusting of snow on the ground! We also didn't get kicked out- despite Kyle climbing up and hanging upside down on iconic park landmarks to glitter bomb people! He also didn't break a single bone after jumping off a 15 foot boulder! (I was literally scared for his life.) As a group, we spread so much joy and happiness in creating this. We touched and inspired so many lives as people watched us dance around like fools, especially the HUGE crowd in front of Bethesda Fountain! And then to finish it all off, we got a visit from so many friendly doggies when we wrapped!!!
We brought magic to the world, and the world gave us magic back.
Spread your love and light.
Because 1. many of you have been asking, and 2. this is a way for me to find support & give support to others that may be going through the same thing.
Basically, my cancer is growing.
Really slowly!! and not by a lot!! but still... growing. 😕
Detailed explanation/thoughts:
In the past year, my thyroglobulin (the tracker for my thyroid cancer) has increased from 2.8, to 3.3, to NOW 3.5. Is it enough of an increase to freak out? No- but the general trend is a bit off setting. In regards to my scans, they found a tiny vascular nodule in my right thyroid bed that is super small (like 0.2x0.3 cm). Could this be the cancer? Maybe... But it's not big enough to do surgery or anything- just something to watch and keep a close eye on.
My instructions were to wait, and to get my tests and scans in 6 months to see if anything changes. 😑
But the thing is, I don't want to wait. I want to HEAL myself NOW and have this cancer thing be overrrrr.
I feel annoyed, frustrated, and exhausted from this whole experience. Been dealing with cancer for the past 11 years-- this thyroid cancer alone for the past 4 years. I feel like I am running a never-ending marathon where the finish line keeps moving up 10 miles. I keep wondering if I should mentally prepare myself for this to be a long-lasting chronic thing, or if I should put in all my hope/effort/time/money/energy to get rid of it as soon as I can.
I am resetting my mindset to a combination of both ideas. I need to find a balance of preparing myself mentally for a long journey, AND also be positive, full of hope, and never give up on my daily challenges, whatever they may be. If freedom of cancer is what I want, I need to be consistent and powerfully determined with my actions EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
I am not cancer free yet, but I am determined to get there. I don't know how long it will take, (I may become a grandma before I get there! 👵🏼), but I am going to fight every day. I will be victorious. 👊🏼
Here I go... 🙂
Dedicated to those who bring out the best in me.
You know who you are. :)
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Being an artist means forever healing your own wounds and at the same time endlessly exposing them. ”