“When your determination changes, everything will begin to move in the direction you desire. The moment you resolve to be victorious, every nerve and fiber in your being will immediately orient itself toward your success. On the other hand, if you think, “This is never going to work out,” then at that instant every cell in your being will be deflated and give up the fight.”

Daisaku Ikeda

Choreography: Me!
Dancers (left to right): Elodie Dufroux, Sarina Gonzalez, Brianna Mercado, Cleo Sykes, Kaori Akazawa
Song: Do You Remember by Jarryd James
Filmed & Edited by Kyle Breen

“Flowers teach us that nothing is permanent: not their beauty, not even the fact that they will inevitably wilt, because they will still give new seeds.
Remember this when you feel joy, pain, or sadness.
Everything passes, grows old, dies, and is reborn.”

―Paulo Coelho

Last week, I spent all my travel time non the subway and buses listening to Kris Carr’s Healing Cancer Summit. At first, I was like- ehhhh this stuff is lame sauce. I know what I am doing… But I was surprised at the resources and information I discovered. It was so refreshing listening to people that just GET IT. I was in awe of Kris’s interview skills and her ability to connect to all of the special guests. Listening to all the lectures also reaffirmed that I am on the right path in this healing “Get To Zero” journey…

This morning on my way to teach in Jersey, I listed to the interview with Kelly Turner, Ph.D, founder of The Radical Remission Project, who did a bunch of crazy research to find out what the common ways are to achieve what she calls Radical Remission. To my surprise, only 2 are physical. After listening to her speak, I know I have a lot more soul searching to do. I am also so intrigued by the power of the mind.

Here’s her list of 9:

1. Radically changing your diet

2. Taking control of your health

3. Following your intuition

4. Using herbs and supplements

5. Releasing suppressed emotions

6. Increasing positive emotions

7. Embracing social support

8. Deepening your spiritual connection

9. Having strong reasons for living

I am discovering that every day has it’s Whoopsies and Hoorays. I am really getting that health and wellness is a mix between a full time job and never-ending practice. I am letting that inspire me now instead of stress me out. (A few weeks ago, I was in the head space of making this healing journey like a game with a point system, and THAT only made me feel like a big loser… haha. Really difficult to stay positive in that mindset!)

I am excited about this transformation in myself. I look back at who I was 4 months ago, and where I am now, and I am so proud. I have healthier habits, I am thinking less and doing more, asking for help, saying No to things, putting my health first…

Let the journey to heal myself carry on!

What a D R E A M it was to work on this music video. I pride myself in being a very optimistic person, but even during rehearsals and everything, I was convinced that this wasn’t going to work out, or that all the dancing was going to be cut last minute…. but alas! It ACTUALLY happened. And to top it all off, my hair style made me the featured unicorn woman for the whole day we filmed! hahaha

Jon had introduced me to Coheed years ago, and I started listening to their music. Since working with Jon, we have worked on countless project and dance pieces to their music… with the DREAM of someday being able to be involved in a music video or a show with Coheed.

Then BOOM. This happened.
We asked the Universe for it, then we worked our butts off, and then it happened.

I am learning that hard work ( in this highly superficial & unreasonable dance world ) generally won’t get you your dream job because of dumb reasons you can’t control, but it will get you pretty darn close to something JUST as awesome. This was NOT one of those gigs. Instead, this was one of those once in a lifetimes miracles where we put the work in for a gig so specific, and it actually pays off and comes back to you. And for that, I am so in awe and THANKFUL for this experience. So rare. So unique. I am so lucky.

To Jon- you are the GRIT and FORCE that made it happen... Thank you.

This video is a HUGE victory for The Grit… and for all of those who push their limits late nights and ealy mornings to chase their dreams.

Here’s to making what seems unbelievable achievable.

Coheed and Cambria's official video for their track 'Old Flames' off of their new album The Unheavenly Creatures.

Photography by Emily Dubin